53.

is it today again - already?

last night i went to Girl House in the haight. i watched some movies, smoked some pot and had a few beers and passed out in a girl bed - a duh. i woke up around 2am to find myself no longer alone. there was a swedish pickle relaxing on my bum, and a stunning young chap doing bumps off his keys.
hello life. good to see you again. i sure did miss you this week.

this morning i woke up, after a night full of crazy dreams.. about people waking me up and kicking me out of bed...

i smoked a gang of pot, i re-upped.. yaayyyyeaaaaah. stonily dazily made my way to the bus stop. got on the bus. rode the bus. you know those bums? those gutter punk bums. sometimes they say fucked up stuff to you. sometimes the sell you jokes. sometimes they are hot. they are hot and have that crazy look in their eyes like they could love you like you've never been loved... forcefully. sometimes, they look tough, beat and sweet. that's what the guy across from me on the bus looked like today. and it took me a while to notice, but he had a sweet miss pit bull curled up in his lap. sleepy sleepin' her sleeps away. the man kept looking at me.. well i think it was because i kept looking at him. but the look he was giving me... i don't know if it was solely because i was high, or if it was .. something else. but i could not tell what he was thingking or feeling. but the look man. the look said one thousand words. he made me want to sit next to him. to share my coffee with him. it's like he was a member of that club. you know THAT club. the club of us who WOULD share our coffee with you - you the stranger. the US who would drive one hundred miles out of the way to help out a stranger. the US with the wordless bond. yo. holler. hippie city. but anyway. it was like i met a member of the group that i have never met before. and we didn't even speak.

and these are my velvet pants. i will never wear anything else again.

the sign says PARTY, my heart says FARTY. pants are from Forever 21, i went there last week. bought some shit.