Thursday

571.

what the fuck is LIFE?
in trying to deal with some major "last night" anxiety recently (you know.. desperately trying to convince myself that it's OKAY to be myself and i am JUST myself) i discovered that up until JUST THAT VERY MOMENT, i had never fully realized that i was a part of the world. 
duuuuude, deep. 
what i say is what "people" say, what i do is what "people" do. i am not invisible - they all can see me. 
MY FACE, FOR THE WORLD TO SEE! 
 shit, man. it hit me like a bag of moldy doughtnuts... people can see my face. ew. holy shit. they might even recognize me. gross. they can hear me when i speak, they remember what i say. 
what the fuck is life?
and what about all the fucking bombs? and poisonous gas? and leaky killer nuclear poison? just what about that? what about cancer, and dying, and babies coming out of my best friend's vagina?!? 
YOU TELL ME!
date rape and drones. russia. incurable diseases. diarrhea and diabetes. grammar mistakes, student loans, impotence and HPV. wasted dreams, un-tapped talent. BUNIONS! chapped lips. 
what the fuck is life? 

1 comment:

  1. You need to start blogging again I loved your posts! You follow my old blog, "Decayla" I changed it to brujaa666.blogspot.com I hope to get to see more posts in the future!

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